My Experience in Writing

My name is Ray, I was born and raised in Las Vegas in 1999. My first language is English but I also speak Arabic. First of all, I would like to say I do not think I am a good writer. Since the time I remember until now writing has been a struggle for me. When I was little, my mother took me to the mall. I saw in one of the department stores, an old-fashioned black typewriter. I thought it was fascinating, my mom explained to me that this was what they used to write in place of computer’s only two decades ago. I just imagine myself sitting and typing and the sound of each letter is ringing and how it feels good on my fingertips and how I can go on like that forever. I thought I would want to be a writer one day, but that did not happen. When I went to school, every time I have an assignment, I will have ideas in my head, but it is hard for me put them in writing. I write only when I have to, for English class or other classes. My older brother is a very good writer, he wrote his first poem when he was in sixth grade. Even at that early age his language was eloquent, the flow of words is exquisite for an eleven year old. My parents framed two of his poems and they are still hung up on the wall in the family room until today. Those framed poems in my family room were like another trigger for me. All what I wanted is to write something good enough, so my parents will frame my work and hang it on the wall next to my brother’s. I tried to write poems like my brother but poetry was not my forte.  Two years ago, I decided to start to write a story. this was the first time I wrote something that was not homework. It was a fantasy story. I enjoyed writing that story, both my parents encouraged me, they said it was really good. They told me that they believe if I finish that story, I can publish it. I still have the notebook until today, I hope that I will finish it and publish it as soon as I have time. When that time comes, I probably will have my brother proof read my story with me, because I trust his judgement and sincere opinion. When I write, I honestly do not have a particular technique. My writing process start with a pencil and a notebook. Every time I finish a page or two, I type them on my laptop and proof read them, then check my spelling and grammar would be the final step. Many times, I feel that I’m living each word. I will be writing to the point that I am isolated from everything around me. Other times I won’t get up to eat or do anything fearing that I will lose the idea that I’m writing about, and worry that the words will stop pouring out of my brain if I get off of my chair. On the contrary there are times that I will sit in my room in front of my laptop and cannot come up with a sentence for hours. I really do not know if this just me or if other people have the same problem. I would like to be an inspirational writer and be able to help others however, I am still an amateur when it comes to writing. I believe to deserve the title of a writer, a writer should be able to enjoy writing, anytime, anywhere even knowing that they could have writer’s block. I have no doubt that writing these days is easier and less complicated than it was in the past. People can write blogs get comments, whether it’s positive or negative, which makes it an experience that will result hopefully to get advanced in their writing. At the same time, the availability of other people’s blogs and all the feedback that a writer might think it’s negative can actually be helpful especially for beginners to grow thick skin and accept criticism and learn from it. In the end of the day, for me as somebody who is trying to write, until this moment, when I am required to write, I get anxious, the words and ideas escape my mind. On the other hand, when I want to write I feel like I am happy and am floating on clouds.